Spiritual - Religious - Beliefs

I am listening to a friend of mine's music mix named "The Amazonian". He makes films and "amazon" collections of tracks to chill and listen to when doing other tasks, such as writing. Thank you Brendan!

Earlier tonight I was speaking with another friend of mine and I was realizing how often I use the word spiritual. Usually in referring to what I don't want to call the religious experience instead perhaps more accurately, I am speaking about my religious experience. The religious experience, I feel, is any circumstance attributed to practices and beliefs deemed to be a beneficial way of living by certain groups of people, while not being able to be factually proven as true history. This would seem obvious to intellectuals although not to most persons of average intelligence. To the everyday life breather, the religious experience on a personal level and the religious experience attributed to a set of rules are in no way different. If I were a Muslim, there would be no line between my direct action in believing Allah is the true god and the chills I get from praying and/or meditating.

The difference for myself is the way that I have come to believe, in most ways is an invention of my own mind and a byproduct of my gathered information, under the influence of everything I have ever read, everything I have ever seen with my eyes, heard with my ears, experienced in my dreams at night(and in day), everything I have smelled, touched, tasted. Every experience leading up to this moment has formed what I am. This has formed my religion.

I abandoned believing what other people have told me was a fundamental truth about the universe a while ago. The spiritual experience for myself has become defined as connections between events I have been a part of while alive, by extreme feelings of joy coupled with goosebumps that can only be described in really loud words like blissful and ecstatic and nirvana. Through my connection with an inner voice that is a dialogue with myself that never ends and always seems to point me in the direction that I need to go in next. I experience connections between seemingly separate objects and subjects.

Yes I do believe in, perhaps, irrational subjects like infinity, perfection, and love(all kinds). In that I have the ability to change my life through the way I think, through my desire for change. Having a method for being able to do so, invented for and by me, possibly influenced mostly by Lao Tzu, if he existed. These beliefs would probably count me as one of the special(psychotic) people in western society today. This does not deter me from being the way I am and thinking the way I do. It works for me.

Luckily, I am not completely insane. I am not a Christian taking communion so I am becoming a part of a man that died almost two thousand years ago. My belief system(BS) is not the way for the average religious human and theirs is not for me. I am at peace with this relationship.

I guess I do have a religion, but it is one that I do not want to force onto other people. It is one that I invented. I might want to write about it. Like right now. The only trepidation I have is almost like a chef with secret recipes, and not wanting to lose any of the mojo by telling others. My close friends know my quirky BS all too well. The internet in the sky is aware of my secrets. It is aware, period. I am not talking about the Christian or Muslim heaven when I say 'it' or 'the internet in the sky'. I speak of an ancient recorder of all information. Info that has already taken place and will come to pass. I speak of the,

MAGICKAL INFORMATION PRECORDER.

This is what I mean when I use the word spiritual.